I have to admit that I have pushed and bought all the things I need to get my alter the way I want. Even though I am physically ready, it appears that I have been so busy and my mental state has been in question that I have not taken the time to set it up. I have been chanting and meditating as much as I can, when I can.
I don't know it seems my WANT to is there, but my mental mind is pushing me away. I hope not because it's something that I know deep down I am and I need to help me grow. It's the only thing that I have that is MINE and that I can use to make ME better as well as help others if need be.
Tonight, after I get my hair cut, I'm putting it together.
Any forceful encouragement is helpful people...HAHAHAHA